Nineteen things I’ve learned before I turned nineteen.

1. Always carry $5 and a lighter with you (even if you don’t smoke). 

2. Ask every person you meet how their day is going. Genuinely ask with the soul intention of learning how their day is. Ask the coffee shop employee. Ask the person next to you in line at Walmart. Ask your distant friend. Ask everyone.

3. Take many photos of yourself. Take photos of yourself when you’re happy. Take photos of yourself when you’re sad. Take photos of yourself because there are millions of trees in the world, and we all look at the same sky, but there is only one of you.

4. Stay in contact with your parents. Try not to hate them. They are the reason you have the ability to feel anything at all. Try not to hate your parents.

5. Opening your skin will not set your demons free. Open your heart. Open your mind. Open your hands.

6. Nobody knows anybody completely. That’s okay.

7. Be gentle, but be aggressive. Take a stand. Nobody hears your voice if you stay silent. 

8. Respect everybody. We are all humans trying to survive. We all deserve respect. 

9. Wearing black will ALWAYS make you feel better about yourself.

10. Always give tips, whether it be a couple extra dollars or a piece of mind. You never know how much you could be helping someone.

11. Change is the only thing consistent in life. Do not allow that bother you. Embrace chance and move with life, whichever direction it chooses to take you.

12. Smile often. Smile at strangers. Smile at your friends. Smile when nobody is looking and you’re alone in your bedroom. Smile when somebody is rambling to you. 

13. Body image means nothing. Your body is merely just a seatbelt in the car. Your body is here to protect you. You choose the direction you go, and your body will not hold you back. Only you can hold yourself back. 

14. Don’t hold grudges. Don’t allow yourself to hate anybody. Forgive them. Learn to love them for the person you never got to see them to be. Believe that a beautiful human exists in that person. Wish them well.

15. Drink orange juice. Lot’s of it.

16. Don’t allow the opinions of others to choose your destiny. We are all simply trying to live our own life.

17. Sing all the time. Sing off key. Sing in a silly voice. Sing like you’re on stage. Sing no matter who is around. Singing is breathing for the soul. Sing.

18. Take time to think. Write your feelings down. Write letters to the people you love. Texting is overrated and not as heartfelt as a nice handwritten letter.

19. Live for yourself. Breathe for yourself. Do everything in your life for nobody but you. This is your life. This is it.

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The most sober thing a drunk person could say

He is going to fuck you up, and you're gonna let him.

4pm "You deserve the best, I hope you get it."

We all have different definitions of a good day, so this is what I hope for you.

 I hope when you peel citrus fruit 

that it all comes out in one piece.

 I hope that you have nothing to do today so that you can stay in the shower because sometimes that’s the warmest and safest place to be.

 I hope you let the sidewalk kiss

the bottoms of your bare blistered feet after you’ve walked far too long in uncomfortable shoes.

 I hope the lights are all green on your drive home.

 I hope the cashier looks at you like you’re beautiful.

 I hope you have an appetite tonight and I hope you have more than enough good things to eat.

 I hope the walk to your car smells like trees and fresh cut grass.

 I hope you haven’t forgotten how lovely you are.

 I hope you get some stuff done 

even when you couldn’t leave your bed last week. 

 I hope you went outside even though

you didn’t want to see anyone.

 

 I hope you at least have a day

where nothing bad happens.

 I hope you have a day when you give yourself a break because you need to remember that you’re human.

 I hope you do something that makes you feel good about yourself.

 I hope you do something for you and only you.

 I hope you remember it’s not selfish to take care of yourself first.

 I hope you remember it’s okay to eat.

 Most of all, I hope you don’t die

because you are so many people’s reason to stay alive.

Six Word Story

 - "Just once, please choose me first."

- "You traced my scars. I cried."

- "Stop romanticizing people who hurt you."

- "I Drank until you weren't real."

- "You're just another girl to him."

- "Someday I'll leave without looking back."

- "Nothing kills you, like your mind."

- "Your eyebrows are Sisters, not Twins."

- "Because our addictions are our distractions."

- "I miss hearing about your day." 

- "Someone's therapist knows all about you."